november is my yoga month. time to get a month unlimited membership to a yoga club of choice, so I finally decided to give Bikram yoga a chance.

while my first session made me incredibly dizzy and for the last half hour of class, it took all I had just to be laying down and try not to throw up. or not to run out of the room. when I got home I felt shaky, nauseous, dizzy and weak. it took the rest of the evening to nurse the bare minimum of liquids in me to keep the dehydrated headache at bay and not to feel like I was recovering from a hang over.

at the same time I was overwhelmed with the amount of energy in my body. I was overwhelmed by what boundaries I had just pushed with my own body and how I felt… well.. clean. and this was just one time. I was amazed by the amount of liquids pouring out of my body, even just by sitting still in the room. mind struggle over trying to breathe, trying not to run out the door, trying not to throw up. I know a thing or two about the experience of pushing your own body beyond what you thought was actually possible, beyond what you imagined you were capable of. I am incredibly intriqued by the effects of Bikram yoga after just one session. I am curious to see if the heat will ever be something I can get used to, or I will make it through this month and then kinda give it a rest.

I am itching to go tonight again, just to see if I can do better.