so.

I am shocked and baffled and don’t know what to do with what I am handed with. I have forgotten what it felt like to be head over heels for someone. I’ve forgotten the nervous butterflies in my stomach and I’ve forgotten the elated feeling of letting go and letting someone love you. waking up in the morning next to him, wanting to spend every waking minute with this person. when they’re in the room, they’re the only one you see. someone who lights up your day just by who they are. it’s weird to be so amazed by one single person! I have forgotten how much you love and admiration you can have for someone when they walk into your life. and then there’s the inevitable arrival of saying good bye and living with hopes and dreams of being together again.

I don’t have words to describe how thrilled I am to be in the company of this person. how much he makes me smile and be so blissfully happy about life it’s almost wrong. the connection is electric, he gives me goose bumps. he makes me laugh and admire his energy. he makes me feel like I have known him for years. and I know it’s mutual, he’s told me so.

is it okay just to give into it and enjoy it while it lasts? I am willing to deal with the aftermath as long as I get one more day, one more hour with him.