I have been thinking.

with happiness comes a quiet. a peace I have been searching for. peace allows me to stay home for a weekend and not be disappointed and angry with myself that I didn’t climb some peak this week.

I have questions in the back of my mind I haven’t quite dared to ask myself yet. I am not sure what they are yet. I realize that with happiness comes a certain ease of life. I’ve come to understand that staying after my fire is exhausting. while I live for the adventures and the outdoors, the fire that keeps me after all of it is fading. I am not saying that now that I am not heart broken that I would somehow stop climbing peaks and lay low. not at all, you all know that is not who I am. not at all.

but what I think I am saying.. is that it’s ok for me to relax sometimes. I want to live in montana where life is simple, joyful, easy and abundant. yes, all those things at the same time.