counting days. there’s only a few left before we are off. I am following it through. he’s turned some kind of a corner. when before he may have been a little cold, like a clam shell. now he’s affectionate. we’ve been touring a bunch this past week and it has been really good. went up blackmore yesterday and skied out my newly found gully. he was impressed. then skied to the hut I had found down below.

while at times I may have been torn why I am still doing this, I am loving every minute of it. I have the capacity to appreciate these moments and the time I am given. be in this moment. rather than to dwell on what I do not have. and things that I cannot change. what he has given me is priceless. I will have fantastic memories to dream of when he’s gone, when I am gone. truly, he is leaving me better than he found me. he has made my heart feel good and in the past few days made me feel really good about being with him.

now he’s asking me if we’ll see each other when I get back. surely this will pass.