and that was the end of it all. I have to set myself free out of respect and love. I hope he comes back someday.

there’s only so much you can do. hope it might come back but I have a fairly good grasp on the realization that he won’t. even though I asked to spend the next two weeks with him, I know I can’t.

I think that I see what I am to him. and what he is to me is too much to ask of him. I have been with people that have been way into me and I can tell. I know what he feels like to be adored. I think I’m more a friend when he has none, an emotional blanket when he needs one. I’m the catalyst, I’m the distraction. sure he likes me a lot, likes to spend time with me, and I can only I hope that he is being with me because he’s into me. not because he needs a filler.

so there’s my answer.

maybe someday. someone good might stay.