I used to worry a lot. to the point of some kind of a bodily ailment. I have noticed that worry creeping in every now and then. especially lately and I am not entirely sure why. I need to keep working and doing the things I need to do so I stay ahead stress.

so, today I was driving to work and wondered what is it that I stress out about. I stared at the mountains and realized that as long as I am not dying and I am okay in body, mind and spirit, then everything is just fine! I worry about my career, my job, money, my health, my car, my house, my family, my relationships… the list is endless, and they are all miniscule little things that will not hurt me on the long run. it kinda makes me feel like an idiot that I worry about these things. I feel like I should know better, or that I am better than that, I should be. most of these things are manageable, workable or simple things that happen in life that, for the most part, are just a part of life. and if something happens, then it just happened and I should again remember what I used to preach myself: If I can change it, then do what I can to change it, and rest of it, let it go. I am not sure at which point did I start worrying about all this again and why I have become somewhat scared of life, so to speak. why I have forgotten to relax and let life happen.

all of a sudden all this started. like a month ago? I feel like I am changing. I am no longer sure which direction I am heading. it might be because I am currently not skiing a ton, I don’t have the homies to climb peaks with, in essence I am like a fish out of water. sitting still. waiting for something. just not sure what. I need to get out an ski before I loose my mind!!!!

…and breethe. life is peaceful here in montana. simple and easy. let it be just that.